Life throws us many curveballs (Baseball reference). We just have to learn how to hit em'; the curveballs. Why do we tend to want to "sulk" in the sorrow? Why do we want to feel down in the dumps?... I had my stint with depression/sorrow waaaay back when I was fifteen when my father passed away. I allowed the darknesss to fall upon me. I wouldn't leave my room or allow anyone to hear or see me. If I ate any food it would be at 3am when everyone was asleep, and even then it would be something bland like toast and stuff. I saw the hurt I was putting my mother through but I didn't care. I felt like I didn't deserve to be around. "What's the point? my phone hasn't rung, my pager hasn't gone off, what's the point of being alive no one will miss you", is what I would think to myself. Three months later God kicked me into shape. I was lying in bed at about 3pm and I heard a voice. A strong voice tell me, "GET UP OUT OF BED, YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS. I DIDN'T BRING YOU INTO THIS WORLD AND GIVE YOU YOUR GIFTS FOR YOU TO WASTE THEM AWAY. GET UP AND BE WHO YOU ARE MEANT TO BE". I quickly sat up placed my hands on my face and began to cry, yell, and punch at my bed. I cried because I was happy; I am better than this. I yelled to release all the negative thinking that was keeping me down, and I punched away at the bed because I was upset at myself for thinking I was anything less than AWESOME. I dried my eyes and got out of that bed, out of that room, out of that state of mind. I found my mother in the kitchen cooking, she looked at me with the most joyful eyes. I hugged her tight and told her I loved her and I'm sorry. My bro-phew was extatic to see me as were my sisters. From that day forward I have had an awesome outlook on life. The negatives are also positives to me. I learn from the negatives. My family has suffered through many trials and tribulations after the passing of my father, but now I truly am here. I am a rock. I ensure we all smile and keep out whits/faith about us.
THE GLASS IS HALF FULL... "Man that chick totally rejected you!- yeah but atleast I went up to her." "Man these people keep gossiping about you- I know it's not true, if it entertains them, let them keep talking. They're only showing me who THEY truly are." "Sorry to hear about the death of your father- me to, but I know he's in a better place and one day I'll be with him too in paradise.". The glass is half full folks-Stay thirsty my friends, LOL .
"For I know the plans I have for you, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a
future and a hope" -Jesus- Jeremiah 29:11
